10 Things

things I like about myself
- The blue of my eyes after I have cried
-The gray of my eyes when I'm mad
- The shape of my lips
- THe cord in my neck when I am combing my hair
- My hair
- My legs
- my ability to adapt, even when I don't want to
- my ability to see and empathize with every side of an argument
- my ability to love my friends so completely
- my ability to continually change
- my desire to better myself
- my love of learning
- my strength to change myself when I need to
- my excitement over new ideas
- my love of all things dark and scary


things I have to say to someone for real one day

1. Thank you. We're all refreshed and challenged by your unique point of view.
2. The fact that no one understands you doesn't mean you're an artist.
3. I don't know what your problem is, but I'll bet it's hard to pronounce.
4. Any connection between your reality and mine is purely coincidental.
5. I have plenty of talent and vision. I just don't care.
6. I like you. You remind me of when I was young and stupid.
7. What am I? Flypaper for freaks!?
8. I'm not being rude. You're just insignificant.
9. I'm already visualizing the duct tape over your mouth.
10. I will always cherish the initial misconceptions I had about you.
11. It's a thankless job, but I've got a lot of Karma to burn off.
12. Yes, I am an agent of Satan, but my duties are largely ceremonial.
13. No, my powers can only be used for good.
14. How about never? Is never good for you?
15. I'm really easy to get along with once you people learn to worship me.
16. You sound reasonable…Time to up my medication.
17. I'll try being nicer if you'll try being smarter.
18. I'm out of my mind, but feel free to leave a message…
19. I don't work here. I'm a consultant.
20. Who me? I just wander from room to room.
21. My toys! My toys! I can't do this job without my toys!
22. It might look like I'm doing nothing, but at the cellular level I'm really quite busy.
23. At least I have a positive attitude about my destructive habits.
24. You are validating my inherent mistrust of strangers.
25. I see you've set aside this special time to humiliate yourself in public.
26. Someday, we'll look back on this, laugh nervously and change the subject.


84 Things To Live By

1. Forgive your parents (done this one, problem is they keep doing the same shit to piss me off again)
2. Pay off debt (College loans… gonna be awhile)
3. Lose your image (working on it)
4. Think critically (Sometimes)
5. Find the silver lining (Sometimes)
6. Make friends with children, old people and animals (Got it!)
7. Don’t watch the news (Got it!)
8. Explore outside your comfort zone (All the time)
9. Try new foods (Got it!)
10. Invest your money (Gotta get #2 taken care of first)
11. Get rid of clutter (ummm… not gonna happen)
12. Read the ingredients list (Do it!)
13. Don’t believe information you’re given when someone or something is trying to sell you something (Got it!)
14. Don’t grocery shop hungry (Try not to)
15. Lose toxic friends (Working on it)
16. Do yoga (SOmetimes)
17. Never stop learning (Got it!)
18. Get a hobby (Got too many)
19. Don’t buy publications that have celebrity headlines (Got it!)
20. Thank your parents (Done it!)
21. Buy used (All the time)
22. Don’t buy into the housing hype (Don't worry)
23. Learn to differentiate between needs & wants (still working on that one)
24. Ignore socialization (Not 100% sure what you mean)
25. Time does not equal dedication (Yep)
26. Things are not love (Yep)
27. Stop trying to change your lover (Is making him move out changing him?)
28. Learn from your AND others mistakes (Trying)
29. Listen more (I do that alot)
30. Exercise (trying)
31. Find a life outside of your children (GOt it)
32. Stay out of direct sunlight (Definitily got it)
33. Buy your size, not the one you want to be (not a problem)
34. Identify government propaganda or research it yourself (Got it)
35. Get a library card (Got one… with overdue fees on it)
36. Don’t waste food (Try not to)
37. Be honest (trying really hard)
38. Don’t let anyone intimidate you; everybody has something on either side of the bell curve (…)
39. Let children struggle so they can grow their own wings (Got it)
40. Forgive yourself; you only did what you knew to do, when you could decide to do it. (…)
41. Grow a backbone (trying)
42. FLOSS (ok)
43. Don’t ever try a cigarette (Too late)
44. Learn how to make yourself orgasm first (Go it)
45. If you are repeatedly treated poorly by someone, it’s because you allow it to continue (I know)
46. Confidence is sexiest (trying to rememebr that)
47. A great haircut is worth it (OK)
48. Say NO when you get the urge (ok)
49. Read this (got it)
50. And this and this and this and this (ok)
51. Be grateful (I try)
52. When you marry someone you marry his or her family. (yeah… I remember that)
53. A marketer working for DeBeers created the American tradition of the engagement ring. (i'm getting a don't get married feel here)
54. Your job probably thinks your expendable; be selective with your loyalty (Yeah, already knew that one)
55. When your kids constantly whine and misbehave, it’s not because of the school system… (It's my fault, I understand)
56. If you are offended by something someone says about you, it’s probably true (Yep)
57. Give without expectation (Trying)
58. Everyone likes a birthday cake, no matter how much they deny it (You can gain weight from your own birthday cake on our birthday… it's a fact)
59. Don’t yell (Yelling is fun)
60. Get over yourself (Thank you all my exes )
61. No one really knows what they’re doing in life (Good to know I"m not alone)
62. Communicate (I try)
63. Diversify: your friends, money and interests (got it)
64. Talk about ideas, not people (Try)
65. Don’t fall into marketable New Age hype (GOt it)
66. There are 400 billion stars in our galaxy, so yes, the world does not revolve around you (Yes it does)
67. Smile (apparently, it’s the 2nd best thing you can do with your mouth) (LOL)
68. Compliment more (I try)
69. Know your weaknesses, find other people to complement them (I try)
70. Mentor, mentor, mentor (Yes, yes ,yes)
71. No matter how much you know, you’re still probably ignorant (Completely)
72. America needs a lot of work right now (We all do)
73. Race does not define you (Neither does anything else, but possibly definitions)
74. Your purpose is to be; enjoy it (Trying)
75. Normal doesn’t exist; it’s all socialization put in your head (I know… keep working past it)
76. Live beneath your means (Try)
77. Avoid car loans (try)
78. Clip coupons (No)
79. Stay on the border of the grocery store (…)
80. Tip 20% or more (Always try to)
81. Your beliefs are yours alone, unless some random stranger asked for a lecture, keep it that way (GOt it)
82. Take responsibility for your choices (Got it)
83. Just do it. Anything, everything, all of it - whatever you want. Just do it. (This negates some of what you said above)
84. It’s always easier then you thought. (Nope, sometimes it's harder)


As I've matured…
Author: unknown

As I've Matured…
I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in.
I've learned that one good turn gets most of the blankets.
I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people are just jackasses.
I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it.
I've learned that whatever hits the fan will not be evenly distributed.
I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to others - they are more screwed up than you think.
I've learned that depression is merely anger without enthusiasm.
I've learned that it is not what you wear; it is how you take it off.
I've learned that you can keep vomiting long after you think you're finished.
I've learned to not sweat the petty things, and not pet the sweaty things.
I've learned that ex's are like fungus, and keep coming back.
I've learned age is a very high price to pay for maturity.
I've learned that I don't suffer from insanity, I enjoy it.
I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, unless we are celebrities.
I've learned that artificial intelligence is no match for natural stupidity.
I've learned that 99% of the time when something isn't working in your house, one of your kids did it.
I've learned that there is a fine line between genius and insanity.
I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon and all the less important ones just never go away. And the real pains in the ass are permanent.


Rather destructive things I would like to do/see happen

roast marshmallows over the burning ruins of NYC

Watch a sea monster come up out o the river and swallow a car (or be in the car, but survive to tell)

Set fire to a large crop of tobacco (Or marijuana)

Blow up a building, or several buildings or an oil rig

Be there when a volcano erupts

Watch nature take back what is rightfully hers

Crash a boat into a pier

drive a car over a cliff

See a tidal wave


Advice from moms (from Maggies page here)

Wear the tight dress. You won’t have that body forever.

If there’s a nuclear war, head north. There will be less fallout up there.

Don’t tell contractors what to do, it pisses them off. Ask them. And bring beer.

If you’re lost in the woods, follow a stream downstream and you’ll find houses.

The more they process the food, the more you have to pay. Buy the whole chicken.

If a bear attacks, curl into a ball to protect your internal organs.

If someone needs money enough to beg for it, give them a dollar.

If you boil willow bark and drink the tea, it’s like taking asprin.

You should iron that.

If something big stabs you, leave it in until you can get to the hospital.

Put a little lipstick on, Margaret.

You need to learn to shoot a handgun.


thing I want my kids to know

* Make up your own mind. Don’t take anyone’s word for anything, research what you want to, and come to a logical, intelligent conclusion and stand behind your decisions. If someone, no matter who they are, comes to you and tries to question your stance on anything be ready, be absolutely ready to defend yourself.
* Be nice to animals.
* Everyone is just as worried about themselves as you are about you. Even the kids that think they are cool, they are really the one’s who worry the most. The football jock, the cheerleader, they are all worried about what people think of them. The sooner you can get this fact, the easier your life will be.
* Money does not equal love. No matter how you look at it, money never equals love. Do not buy things for people to show them that you love them, the best way to show you care is to spend your time with someone.
* If someone is picking on you, and you have calmly asked them to stop and they havent, punch them. Bullies need to be put in line, and you don’t have to take shit from anyone. Defend yourself.
* Stick up for your family. You are a proud part of this family and are expected to defend the honor and integrity of each member in this family. It is also your job to take care of your siblings, they will be there the rest of your life, try to get along.
* Be respectful. Learn the names of the people that you meet, look people square in the eye and be polite, until its time to be nasty.
* Its okay to sit back and watch people, but never forget that interaction is the best way to learn.
* If you want to learn something, do not wait for someone to teach you.
* People who look different or act different than us, sometimes need the most love.
* Credit cards are a necessary evil. Get one, and keep the balance below five hundred dollars, and always have that money in the bank. You need credit in america, but only until we get out of this country.
* There is more to life than being popular, funny, or charming, try being smart. Popular will get you everywhere in high school, but no one cares who you are in high school.
* Grownups don’t always make the best decisions. Sometimes we screw up just as bad as you do, the real test in being able to trust someone is knowing that when that person does screw up, they will admit it. Don’t forget that parenting is hard too, but we will do everything we can to be fair.
* Don’t lie. lying hurts people’s feelings and never turns out quite how you want it to. Learn the difference between a fib and a lie, and stay away from both.
* Go to college on a scholarship, work your ass off, even if you arent smart enough, do sports or vice versa. College isnt worth it if you have to pay for it, and me and your father aren’t paying for your college. Sorry Charlie.
* Live within your means. No one will be jealous of you for nice things when they are about to be repo’ed.
* Girls are going to act crazy. Don’t make any decisions that will affect the rest of your life until you are sure where that life is going, and really, you can never be sure.
* Use protection. In every aspect of life. Put on your seat belt, cover the raw chicken with foil, and condoms.
* Nothing on reality Television is real. Cheerleaders don’t look like that, no one is really that cool, and anyone can survive if put into the right situations.
* Always act as if you are being videotaped.
* Never ride anyone’s coat tails, work your ass off and get there on your own merit. You are brilliant, lift your own wings and fly.
* It is okay to question authority, in fact, question authority any time you feel that you are being slighted.
* Life isnt fair. It never was, it never will be. There will always be someone better, faster, stronger. You do your best, and no one can say anything about it.
* Be consistent. Be emotionally consistent, physically consistent, and spiritually consistent.
* Set high expectations for yourself. When you reach those, set higher ones.
* The most important thing I can teach you is how to work for what you want. If it is money, fame, power, whatever it is, you work your ass off until you can taste it. Don’t let anyone hand you anything, you work for your benefit.
* Family is the most important relationship you will ever have.
* Batman is, and always will be, the best superhero.
* Learn how to change your own oil, and repair a flat tire. This is a starting point, when you grow up and get married you will be expected to know how to fix the car.
* On that note, learn how to swing a hammer. Honey-do lists are twice as intimidating if you have to first learn how to throw nails.
* Treat your belongings with respect. When you rip up your favorite comic book, there is no one to blame but you. Respecting your belongings gives you the opportunity to buy new things, since you arent always replacing trashed items.
* Dont do drugs. Anything beyond experimentation is going to hurt you in the long run.
* Tattoos are permanent, and you can qualify to make permanent decisions when you reach the age of 18, have your own home, and have finished schooling required up until then. I support individuality, creativity and tattoos wholeheartedly, but you gotta know that things change.
* Mom always knows best.
* Sex isnt bad, or ugly, or wrong. It IS life changing and you should absolutely be ready to have a child in case something goes wrong. Practice safe sex, and know that you were no angel as a baby, so your children are bound to be just as difficult.
* Save your money. There is always a rainy day, or an unexpected item that you may want to buy on a whim, Have the cash in the bank.
* Dont hesitate to share your feelings.
* When you hear someone older say “just wait, you will look back on this and laugh” its because we all did, and we all have.
* Older does not necessarily mean smarter. Feel free to question credentials.
* Learn to take criticsm. Some days you get it, some days you give it. Either way, do it with a smile.
* Above all else, do all things with love, respect and dignity, but learn how to defend yourself when necessary.


Great geek quotes

* There are 10 types of people in the world: those who understand binary, and those who don’t
* If at first you don’t succeed; call it version 1.0
* I’m not anti-social; I’m just not user friendly
* My software never has bugs. It just develops random features
* Roses are #FF0000 , Violets are #0000FF , All my base belongs to you
* In a world without fences and walls, who needs Gates and Windows?
* Hand over the calculator, friends don’t let friends derive drunk
* I would love to change the world, but they won’t give me the source code
* Enter any 11-digit prime number to continue…
* The box said ‘Requires Windows 95 or better’. So I installed LINUX
* A penny saved is 1.39 cents earned, if you consider income tax
* Unix, DOS and Windows…the good, the bad and the ugly
* A computer lets you make more mistakes faster than any invention in human history - with the possible exceptions of handguns and tequila
* The code that is the hardest to debug is the code that you know cannot possibly be wrong
* UNIX is basically a simple operating system, but you have to be a genius to understand the simplicity
* Ethernet (n): something used to catch the etherbunny
* C:dos
C:
dos.run
run.dos.run
* You know it’s love when you memorize her IP number to skip DNS overhead
* JUST SHUT UP AND REBOOT!!
* 1f u c4n r34d th1s u r34lly n33d t0 g37 l41d
* Alcohol & calculus don’t mix. Never drink & derive
* How do I set a laser printer to stun?
* There is only one satisfying way to boot a computer
* Concept: On the keyboard of life, always keep one finger on the escape button
* It’s not bogus, it’s an IBM standard
* Be nice to the nerds, for all you know they might be the next Bill Gates!
* The farther south you go, the more dollar stores there are
* Beware of programmers that carry screwdrivers
* The difference between e-mail and regular mail is that computers handle e-mail, and computers never decide to come to work one day and shoot all the other computers
* If you want a language that tries to lock up all the sharp objects and fire-making implements, use Pascal or Ada: the Nerf languages, harmless fun for children of all ages, and they won’t mar the furniture
* COFFEE.EXE Missing - Insert Cup and Press Any Key
* Programming today is a race between software engineers striving to build bigger and better idiot-proof programs, and the Universe trying to produce bigger and better idiots. So far, the Universe is winning
* LISP = Lots of Irritating Silly Parentheses
* The beginning of the programmer’s wisdom is understanding the difference between getting program to run and having a runnable program
* Squash one bug, you’ll see ten new bugs popping
* Everytime i time i touch my code, i give birth to ten new bugs
* boast = blogging is open & amiable sharing of thoughts
* We are sorry, but the number you have dialed is imaginary. Please rotate your phone 90 degrees and try again
* Cannot find REALITY.SYS. Universe halted
* If it weren’t for C, we’d all be programming in BASI and OBO
* Bad command or file name! Go stand in the corner
* Bad or corrupt header, go get a haircut
* Unrecognized input, get out of the class
* Warning! Buffer overflow, close the tumbler !
* WinErr 547: LPT1 not found… Use backup… PENCIL & PAPER
* Bad or missing mouse driver. Spank the cat? (Y/N)
* Computers make very fast, very accurate mistakes
* Best file compression around: “rm *.*” = 100% compression
* Hackers in hollywood movies are phenomenal. All they need to do is “c:\> hack into fbi”
* BREAKFAST.COM Halted…Cereal Port Not Responding
* I survived an NT installation
* The name is Baud……James Baud
* My new car runs at 56Kbps
* Why doesn’t DOS ever say “EXCELLENT command or filename!”
* File not found. Should I fake it? (Y/N)
* Cannot read data, leech the next boy’s paper? (Y/N)
* CONGRESS.SYS Corrupted: Re-boot Washington D.C (Y/n)?
* Does fuzzy logic tickle?
* Helpdesk : Sir, you need to add 10GB space to your HD , Customer : Could you please tell where I can download that?
* Windows: Just another pane in the glass
* Who’s General Failure & why’s he reading my disk?
* RAM disk is not an installation procedure
* Shell to DOS…Come in DOS, do you copy? Shell to DOS…
* The truth is out there…anybody got the URL?
* Smash forehead on keyboard to continue…..
* E-mail returned to sender — insufficient voltage
* Help! I’m modeming… and I can’t hang up!!!
* All wiyht. Rho sritched mg kegtops awound?
* Once I got this error on my Linux box: Error. Keyboard not attached. Press F1 to continue
* Once I got this error on my Linux box: Error. Mouse not attached. Please left click the ‘OK’ button to continue
* Press any key to continue or any other key to quit…
* Press every key to continue
* Helpdesk: Sir if you see the blue screen, press any key to continue. Customer : hm.. just a min.. where’s that ‘any key’..
* Idiot, Go ahead, make my data!
* Old programmers never die; they just give up their resources
* To err is human - and to blame it on a computer is even more so
* (001) Logical Error CLINTON.SYS: Truth table missing
* Clinton:/> READ | PARSE | WRITE | DUMP » MONKIA.SYS
* (D)inner not ready: (A)bort (R)etry (P)izza
* Computers can never replace human stupidity
* A typical Yahoo! inbox : Inbox(0), Junk(9855210)
* (A)bort, (R)etry, (P)anic?
* Bugs come in through open Windows
* Penguins love cold, they wont survive the sun
* Unix is user friendly…its just selective about who its friends are
* Artificial intelligence usually beats real stupidity
* Bell Labs Unix — Reach out and grep someone.
* To err is human…to really foul up requires the root password.
* Invalid password : Please enter the correct password to (Abort / Retry / Ignore )
* FUBAR - where Geeks go for a drink
* I degaussed my girlfriend and I’m just not attracted to her anymore
* Scandisk : Found 2 bad sectors. Please enter a new HD to continue scanning
* Black holes are where God divided by zero
* Hey! It compiles! Ship it!
* Thank god, my baby just compiled
* Yes! My code compiled, and my wife just produced the output
* Windows 98 supports real multitasking - it can boot and crash simultaneously
* Zap! And there was the blue screen !
* Please send all spam to my main address, root@localhost :-)
* MailerD(a)emon: You just received 9133547 spam. (O)pen all, (R)ead one by one, (C)heck for more spam
* A: Can you teach me how to use a computer? B: No. I just fix the machines, I don’t use them
* PayPal: Your funds have been frozen for 668974 days
* 1-800-404 : The subscriber you are trying to call does not exist
* 1-800-403 : Access to that subscriber was denied
* Error message: “Out of paper on drive D:”
* If I wanted a warm fuzzy feeling, I’d antialias my graphics!
* A printer consists of three main parts: the case, the jammed paper tray and the blinking red light
* “Mr. Worf, scan that ship.” “Aye Captain. 300 dpi?”
* Smith & Wesson: The Original Point And Click Interface
* Shout onto a newsgroup : It echoes back flames and spam
* Firewall : Intruder detected. (A)llow in (D)eactivate the firewall
* Real programmers can write assembly code in any language
* Warning! Perl script detected! (K)ill it , (D)eactivate it
* Firewall : Do you want to place a motion detector on port 80 ?
* Helpdesk: Sir, please refill your ink catridges Customer : Where can i download that?
* All computers run at the same speed… with the power off
* You have successfully logged in, Now press any key to log out
* Sorry, the password you tried is already being used by Dorthy, please try something else.
* Sorry, that username already exists. (O)verwrite it (C)ancel
* Please send all flames, trolls, and complaints to /dev/toilet
* Shut up, or i’ll flush you out
* Cron : Enter cron command \ Now enter the number of minutes in an hour
* We are experiencing system trouble — do not adjust your terminal
* You have successfully hacked in, Welcome to the FBI mainframes.
* I’m sorry, our software is perfect. The problem must be you
* Never underestimate the bandwidth of a station wagon full of tapes hurling down the highway
* Webhost livehelp: Sir you ran out of bandwidth, User: Where can I download that?
* If Ruby is not and Perl is the answer, you don’t understand the question
* Having soundcards is nice… having embedded sound in web pages is not
* My computer was full, so I deleted everything on the right half
* You have received a new mail which is 195537 hours old
* Yahoo! Mail: Your email was sent successfully. The email will delivered in 4 days and 8 hours
* I’m sorry for the double slash (Tim Berners-Lee in a Panel Discussion, WWW7, Brisbane, 1998)
* Ah, young webmaster… java leads to shockwave. Shockwave leads to realaudio. And realaudio leads to suffering
* What color do you want that database?
* C++ is a write-only language, once can write programs in C++, but I can’t read any of them
* As of next week, passwords will be entered in Morse code
* earth is 98% full … please delete anyone you can
* A typical yahoo chat room: “A has signed in, A has signed out, B has signed in, B has signed out, C has signed in, C has signed out..”
* When someone says “I want a programming language in which I need only say what I wish done,” give him a lollipop
* Warning! No processor found! Press any key to continue
* Failure is not an option. It comes bundled with your Microsoft product
* NT is the only OS that has caused me to beat a piece of hardware to death with my bare hands
* Warning! Kernel crashed, Run for your lives !
* NASA uses Windows? Oh great. If Apollo 13 went off course today the manual would just tell them to open the airlock, flush the astronauts out, and re-install new one
* JavaScript: An authorizing language designed to make Netscape crash
* How’s my programming? Call 1-800-DEV-NULL
* Yes, friends and neighbors, boys and girls - my PC speaker crashed NT
* root:> Sorry, you entered the wrong password, the correct password is ‘a_49qwXk’
* New linux package released. Please install on /dev/null
* Quake and uptime do not like each other
* Unix…best if used before: Tue Jan 19 03:14:08 GMT 2038
* As you well know, magic and weapons are prohibited inside the cafeteria — Final Fantasy VIII
* Man is the best computer we can put aboard a spacecraft…and the only one that can be mass produced with unskilled labo
* Unix is the only virus with a command line interface
* Windows 95 makes Unix look like an operating system
* How are we supposed to hack your system if it’s always down!
* God is real, unless declared integer
* I’m tempted to buy the slashdot staff a grammar checker. What do they do for 40 hours a week?
* Paypal : Please enter your credit card number to continue
* It takes a million monkeys at typewriters to write Shakespeare, but only a dozen monkeys at computers to run Network Solutions
* Please help - firewall burnt down - lost packet - reward $$$
* If Linux were a beer, it would be shipped in open barrels so that anybody could piss in it before delivery
* Thank you Mario! But our princess is in another castle
* Perl, the only language that looks the same before and after RSA encryption
* Norton: Incoming virus - (D)ownload and save (R)un after download
* I had a dream… and there were 1’s and 0’s everywhere, and I think I saw a 2!
* You sir, are an unknown USB device driver
* C isn’t that hard: void (*(*f[])())() defines f as an array of unspecified size, of pointers to functions that return pointers to functions that return void


10 things that bother me about me
1. I don't know why I do most of what I do
2. I desperately want to be with people but I also want to be by myself
3. I am scared to become obsessed with my artwork
4. I want to do things, but never do them
5. I hold back when I should let go
6. I second guess myself in everything
7. I compare myself to other people
8. I worry about things I have no control over
9. I can't let things go
10. I'm still in love with him


What I've learned (Not written by me)

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone that can be loved. The rest is up to them.

I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back.

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.

I've learned that it's not what you have in your life, but who you have in your life that counts.

I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to the best others can do.

I've learned that you can do some thing in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I've learned that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I've learned that you can keep going long after you can't.

I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel. That either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done regardless of the consequences.

I've learned that money is a lousy way to keep score.

I've learned that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I've learned that you should never tell a child their dreams are unlikely or outlandish. Few things are more humiliating, and what a tragedy it would be if they believed it.

I've learned that no matter good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.

Author: Unknown


3/11/08
10 things I hate about you (yeah you)
1-your eyes
2-the way you smell so good even when you smell bad
3-your hair when you wake up in the mornings
4-the way you drove me crazy after you left me
5-the way you left me
6-the way you didn't come when I needed you
7-the way you let me leave without hugging me
8-your voice on the phone
9-your ability to make me feel
10-your absence in my life


3/5/08
10 obsessions and some validation or explanation
1-sex (not just doing it but the nature of it, the idea of it, the extent some people will go for it)
2-porn (again, the idea behind it, the people who make it, the purpose it serves)
3-suicide (don't really know how t0 explain this one yet)
4-stalking (the very nature of obsession and the lengths we will go to over obsessions)
5-Quantum Physics (More specifically the ideas of alternate dimensions, alternate realities and the lack of placement in objects)
6-Death (My own, I fantasize about my own death, I find it comforting for some reason, I guess cause I know I'll never see it.)
7-Fairytale/folklore as reality (fairies existing, witches existing, etc)
8-Violence (how people resort to it, how it become a drug, etc)
9-Bodies of water (no explanation needed, exactly what it says)
10-Horrors paranormal and real (Ghosts, monsters, sociopaths, the movies, the real things, etc. usually when it ome to ghost stories I just wan to disprove them)


3/4/08
11 things I know about me
1- In a time of crisis I am pretty good
2- I can survive
3- I don't need anyone else (except my kids)
4- If I sit for too long, I will fall asleep
5- I don't "get over" things well
6- I have experienced emotional extremes that most people don't know exist
7- I have criminal leanings
8- I'm idealistic but cynical
9- I'm a sarcastic romantic
10 I will do anything for my friends until they stab me in the back
11- Plans do not work


2/27/08
10 things that make me think of him
1-AIM
2-Passenger seat of my truck
3-scruffy almost beards
4-hoodies
5-Goo Goo Dolls
6-Feathers
7-Antique Keys
8- Sirius Black
9-Tenacious D
10- Red Vs Blue


2/21/08
A few of my favorite things (more than ten) or reasons to be happy
1-books (especially musty old ones with inscriptions)
2-ugly warm socks (argyle and stripes are the best)
3-Feathers that I find, or someone else finds and gives me (but not bought)
4-clocks that have a 13 on them… granted I've only seen one on the addams family, but thinking about them makes me smile
5-paper, all kinds
6-strings of all kind (shoe strings, ribbons, thread, rope, etc)
7-chocolate chip cookie dough (preferable the tube)
8-chocolate
9-saying "fuck it"
10-driving
11-wings
12-writing on things that aren't suppose to be written on
13-old run down buildings
14-going into old rundown buildings
15- going somewhere new
16- singing really loud with the windows rolled down while I drive really fast
17-finding old notes that belong to other people
18- old photographs
19- hair
20- really big headphones
21- cassette tapes
22-records (Vinyl)
23- obscure alternative comics
24-doc martins with the flower print
25- old keys
26- monkeys
27- alice in wonderland
28- obscure references in books, movies, tv shows, whatever, that I get
29-learning something new
30- really old graveyards with interesting headstones


2/20/08
10 things I feel right now
1-tired
2-hate
3-love
4-sleep
5-headache
6-hungry
7-achy
8-grumpy
9-pining
10-loopy


2/12/08

10 ritual ideas
1- wake up early
2- draw everyday at the same time
3- listen to specific music every time
4-watch the same movie/show/clip every time
5- have stillness
6- meditate on the tools
7- light a candle or incense
8- turn around in a circle three times
9- Chant a word or phrase
10- clothing


2/11/08

10 things completely random
1-love
2-hate
3-dizzy
4-bathroom
5-sleep
6-flying
7-dreams
8-sex
9-getting over shit
10-hatred of the soul


10 Things I want to learn about
1- Japanese pop culture
2- the archetype of the whore/ odalisque
3- motion capture
4- 3-d modeling
5- conceptual art
6- destructive art
7- flash mobs and improv mobs
8- video techniques
9- creative writing skills
10- how to talk to people


2/9/08

Happiness
1- warm socks
2- Books
3- feathers
4- Snow
5- chocolate
6- driving
7- big bulky headphones
8- kittens
9- girls with mohawks
10- sleeping late

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